Now, today's topic may not seem that interesting but at the same time, I think it would be fun to talk about. I’ve been a tall person all of my life, and to be honest, I used to hate it. It wasn’t fun being different looking from other kids. I remember being like 8 and feeling super weird that I was taller than the boys in my class haha. Now I’ve grown into just accepting that my height is not that serious and there’s nothing I can do about it anyway. It took a while for me to be okay with myself and today, I’m going to talk about my experiences of being the tall girl.
My younger days
Now I got a growth spurt when I was around 8 and I started to realize that I was a bit…different. Both of my parents are pretty tall, my dad is 6’4, and my mom is 5’9…so the chances of them making a tall child are high obviously. I felt awkward with my height and all of my class photos…yup, I was placed to the back or the side. I would place myself in the back or side of a classroom because I know my head would block people, which I didn’t mind, hated being at the front anyways. Also, clothes never fit you right…jeans were a pain to wear when I was younger because they never go down to my ankle. Even my posture was getting bad and my dad would always remind me to straighten my back. I’m happy to say I wasn’t necessarily treated differently by schoolmates because I wasn't the only tall girl but I wasn’t fully comfortable with myself. Let's just say, I felt really weird about myself and the thought of high school scared me already with it being a new environment.
High school days
I talked about my experience in high school in an old post and I remember saying that I felt like an outcast for being a quiet person and also being one of the tallest in my year. My confidence went rock bottom during this time. I always felt like eyes were always staring at me or people were always judging me. This just increased my anxiety as a child and the craziest thing about it is that it was all in my head. I was so concerned about how different I looked that I worsened my anxiety. I remember being 13 and asking myself, “Why do I care so much?”, I genuinely didn't even know why. Why was I so worried about how people saw me? Why do I feel so different? Weirdly, I realized that it was all in my head and I was caring wayyy too much about how people might think about me. This was the period in my life where I started to think less about other people and it was the best thing I did, it made the rest of high school bearable.
How I feel nowadays
Well, I’m 20 and I can proudly say I love my height haha. The two things that I was insecure about my height were my long arms and legs. I used to hide my arms by wearing sweaters and I would never wear shorts. Most of my wardrobe now is filled with tops with thin straps and I just bought new shorts haha. I think since I’m older and developed my fashion sense, I started to embrace my height and realized there’s nothing wrong with how I look. I think it’s sadly common that most people may have a trait or feature of themselves they didn't like when they were younger. It might take a while but I believe anyone can overcome it. I still have my off days when it comes to how I feel about my looks but I deal with it a lot better than when I was a child.
So, this was a blog idea I had for a while since I wrote my ‘Being The Quiet Girl’ where I hinted about being quiet and tall was an annoying combo in high school haha. Similar to my old posts, I’ve grown to accept who I am and love it, took about 20 years but you know what, everything takes time haha. I hope you enjoyed this…rant?...or let’s say me expressing some experiences being tall. Maybe a few people could relate to having a feature or a trait that they weren’t a fan of when they were younger. Let me know any thoughts you have below and I also wanted to say that all of us are made different for a reason, every little thing about us makes us unique and special, don’t forget that!
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- Anissa (TheQuietGirl)