Ok, so this is gonna be a first. Not sure where I'm gonna go with this but I've been really interested in writing or typing out what's on my mind these days. It became an outlet to help my anxiety and overthinking problem. I don't really have a goal for this blog right now but maybe whatever I post here can relate to other people. I'll talk about many different things here. I'm not an expert or anything, I'm only a 19 years old university student. Hopefully, this is the start of something good.
Updated (Feb. 2021)
Ok, so this was my first post haha. Now obviously, I had no real direction with this blog at first, I was just rambling with my keyboard. Surprisingly, even though this is one of the shortest posts on my blog, I really liked the title of it because I was being honest about it. “My mind these days” really meant how crazy my thoughts were at that time. I would literally be brewing thoughts constantly and would be feeling horrible. As I said in a few posts, I got into writing after being in a situation where I was constantly overwhelmed and just feeling sad. I started my blog as an open journal, not really worried about people seeing it but I knew I could make something out of it but my mind was cloudy at the time. At the time, I named my blog, “Learning, Expressing & Being Yourself”. It’s a long name and also a long URL...but at the time, I didn’t really know that could be a problem because as I said, I didn’t have a direction for my site haha. I really named it that because I wanted to learn more about myself as I grow, be more expressive with how I feel, not pretend anything and just be my full self. Now, as you can see, my blog is called “The Quiet Girl Blog”, based on my alias “TheQuietGirl” and just always being the quiet girl growing up haha. When I look back, I honestly don’t know why I didn’t name it that in the first place...it makes more sense with my alias but again..no direction.
I wasn’t sure if anything I wrote would actually relate to anyone. I would think my problems were too unique for anyone to go through...but I knew anxiety and overthinking isn’t only a “me” problem...it’s just the situations that cause them felt too unique. After having my blog for like a month, I was planning on writing about feelings, I was gonna rant about stuff, talk about hair care and skincare..because, at the time, I was obsessed with that...still obsessed but the pandemic made me a bit lazy haha. I slowly got more comfortable with talking about how I felt and speaking my mind with my blog, as you can see, most of my posts were about that and I left the hair and skincare posts behind. Like I said above, I’m not an expert, I don’t necessarily want to talk about topics and I’m not fully sure about it. I can talk about anxiety because I’m very sure about that..trust me. I’ll leave the hair and skin posts to other bloggers...they’re more committed than me. Well now, I’m an almost 20 years old university student. At that time of my first post, I finished my first year of uni and now I have one more academic year left so hopefully by next year...depending on what else the world’s got to offer after 2020, I should have my first degree next year. I’m a science student but I’m not quite sure yet about my future career right now since it changes so often but I definitely want to work in a lab...I find joy in doing experiments. Managing this blog and having to deal with school isn’t the easiest thing but I try to manage it. I try not to get myself overwhelmed but I think I’ve been doing a good job so far...I haven’t fallen behind in school...yet…..kidding I’ve been keeping up with classes..way better than last year.
“Hopefully, this is the start of something good”, well past Anissa, you got your hopes right..this was the start of something great. Right now you are very comfortable with being a blogger, you get to spend quality free time doing something you enjoy, it’s become a great stress reliever, you have connected with many different persons online in the blogging community, increased your writing skills, your blog is actually doing pretty well and most importantly….you’re happier.
So, this is the way I’m going to update my very old posts, by adding a bit more to them based on the topic months later hehe. Many of my first posts were just me rambling and expressing my thoughts...didn’t have a direct structure like my posts today. I could have deleted these posts or just took the titles and rewrote them but I honestly wanted to keep them untouched. It shows the evolution of my writing and me as a person. All of them are pretty short..which is a big no-no in blogging but I left them there..even if they weren’t getting any views or comments...I didn’t really care because I didn’t have it in me to get rid of them or rewrite them. I hope you liked my reflection on my first post. I’m not quite sure if anyone has updated their old posts like this but yeah. I always want to be genuine and raw with my writing and from my first post, even though it’s not that many words, everything was genuine and I’m happy I keep that trait with my writing.
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I hope you're at your happiest if not, it's okay...I hope you're starting or working on reaching the highest peak of happiness.
- Anissa (TheQuietGirl)
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