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Trying to get used to it

Growing up, I never really had high self-esteem...I always saw myself as average or basic. It slowly got worst when I started high school....make things worse...I went to an all-girls school. I feel like as a teenager, you start figuring out who you are and how you see start taking in all the different environments around you...all the energies. I'm kinda glad I didn't really grow in the "social media' era that's happening today because things would be harder for me and a lot of people with low self-esteem. I mean...I had Facebook and Instagram was around but the whole buzz about social media really blew up went I left high school. I feel like its a human thing to compare yourself to other people but I wouldn't call a good thing. I was always an observer...I would literally sit in my class in 7th grade and look around the class....not stare but like scan the different people around me. I would notice how the other girls look and then I would look at myself..and wonder "why I don't look like that or look good?". As I got older, I kept on looking in the mirror and starting to realize that I'm not bad looking lol...sounds terrible really but that was a start. I never thought I was ugly but I didn't think of myself as extremely gorgeous. The thoughts of myself made it really difficult to take compliments from people...even though I have better self-esteem now...It's still hard to believe. My brain automatically thinks the person is joking with me or lying to me. If the compliment is from a friend, family member or a significant other...I believe them but it still can be like "wow, really lol?". I've been through a lot over the years and I'm very happy with my progress...I'm not fully there but those small steps will mean something one day.

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